It literally just dawned on me that in a few days time we will be going back to class. And can I just say, I am not even a tad bit excited to go back to school. For one, I’m not really eating up all this “I Miss You” and “I want to hang out with you guys again” bull. I’m tired of dealing with people I don’t want to. Although, that’s not to say that there are some people that I’d rather be with back there in UST. I can name a handful, but I’ve been having the best of times with Bea, Basi, and other HS friends.
Why did we even have to be separated huh? :|
I know that it’s childish to want for things not to change, but yeah, sometimes it’s just easier to have things at status quo. When things were just simple, we didn’t have to deal with all the shit we have at the time being. But then there are things that I’m happy to have gotten rid of, so yeah I guess I don’t want things to remain exactly as they are. Maybe some things, but then since we all know that in order to have everything we want, some higher being would have to love you very very much.
Aside from that, my brothers will be leaving in 60 hours time. And that, my friends, suck. One, because no matter how uncharacteristic it is of me I really really really love my brothers. Two, I’d have to be stuck with my other relatives here at home. Deep down inside, I know that I’m happy that they’re around me. BUT FOR THE MOST FUCKING PART THEY ANNOY ME TO BITS. D: They are loud, obnoxious, and downright nosy. Sometimes I wish they’d just leave me alone.
That’s why I’d rather have my brothers with me, I know I’ve wished for them gone before, but I didn’t know it felt like this. It sucks.
There’s this thing with one of my friends. He’s being an annoying clingy bitch. I can understand that I can be a huge asshole myself, it’s my default temperament, but can’t he stop making such a big deal out of everything?! And to spill about it? PLEASE. It’s very aggravating and I can’t help being any more Irritated than I already am. I didn’t think it was possible. I was forced to make a truce just so that everyone, including him, would just shut up about it.
I told him that I’ve forgiven him for whatever he has done to me, on the condition that I’d never have to speak with him again.
You know, I forgive you and all, but can I not deal with you anymore? Something to that extent. It’s plausible, is it not? He gets to satiate this obsessive need of my forgiveness, and I don’t have to deal with this bullshit anymore. Cause I’ll be honest, unless he wants me to bitch out on him, it’s better for him to just leave me alone. UGH.
I know that things can be way worse, and I’ll get over this. I will, so just forgive me for blurting this all out like this. :|
PS: I just have to love some people for trying to cheer me up when I’m this way. I love you people more than you’d know. >:D<.