Lord make me an intsrument of your peace,
where there is hatred, let me show love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
oh Divine Master, grant that i may seek not so much to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love; for it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned, and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
To my dear, ultra cool, and extra special [and by special I actually mean retarded] friend Luis Benjamin Jurado!!!!!!!!!!!! [aka @altersuicide].
I’m bored with the internet.
So I’m going to enjoy some good old fashoined PS3 gaming.
But then I’d be bored with that too so I’d go back online.
Sometimes, and surely this is one of those times, you are a completely insufferable cunt. Whenever you are in a tight spot for money, you always become some raging bitch who enjoys putting the blame on me. I love you, my dear mother, but FUCK YOU. Most of the time I put it off as stress, you need an outlet, and sure I would gladly be that for you. But Jesus Christ, woman!
I have limits just like everybody else does, and the fact that you shut your eyes to this every fucking time has gotten to me. I hate it! And you telling me that I’m a self-centered brat? alksjdalksjdlaksjdlaksjdlaksjdlaksjd. God damn it. If you want a self-centered brat, I can give you self-centered brat. But I won’t do that, because I know this is just a passing thing.
I love you, I really do. But please stop acting like I’m the one who is causing all of this, because it’s tiring. Plus, it’s not like I want you to go through all this financial bullshit my father gave us. And I’m fucking hurt. Stop making me feel like utter crap, okay?
This should be the time when I’d be out with my classmates spending time and rejoicing because, well, we just got through our first year in college. But no, I’m here at home in front of my trustworthy laptop thinking about the million other ways that I could have spent this momentous day.
For one, I thought that my little circle of friends would go do something fun together. But noooooooo. Jade had to go home because her sibling was to attend a Baccalaureate Mass, apparently complete family attendance is a must. Also, I had to leave early so I could accompany @altersuicide to UA&P. I didn’t really want to leave UST early, or leave Karmella for that matter, but there was nothing going on. And the way things went, they’d have gone home after a few minutes anyway. That’s not to say that I regretted going to UA&P with Luis; it was amusing to say the least. :))
Aaacckk. I just found out that they didn’t offer Socio-Anthropology classes during the Summer in UST, I have to wait for the next regular semester to take up that load of bull. UGH.
I am so so annoyed. >:|
- For the life of me, I cannot understand why I cannot take my Philippine History exam already. My brain can only hold so much information at a time! [For the most part this is due to the natural way the brain disposes things that aren’t of any use to me, which of course includes most of the shit they feed us in school] And the fact that there’s a huge chance of me not being able to take that test because it’s scheduled on the HOLY WEEK! UGH.
- I’ve been getting cold feet. I can’t muster up the courage to give her something that I bought for her. How lame can I get? akjsdhakjsdhakjdhaksd. You know what? I’m going to give her that stupid gift to get it all over with, WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN SWEATING???! SHE’D LIKE IT ANYWAY. :| :| :|
- Obnoxious pricks are the bane of my existence. I don’t fucking care if you don’t like my choice of books, okay? I’M NOT TELLING YOU WHAT KIND OF PORN YOU’RE TO WATCH, FUCKER! Leave my book choices alone.
- The worst part is, obnoxious pricks think it’s so cool to stick their 2 cents where it doesn’t belong. Abhorrent bastards.
- OH YEAH! LEAVE MY YM PICTURE ALONE. I LIKE STARGIRL, OKAY?! FUCK YOU STUPID TWAT.
- I have a test on Discrete Math tomorrow and I can’t do any studying because I am so fucking annoyed. slkdfjsldkfjalksdalksjdla.
What am I still doing ranting like this. PUTA. This is one of those nights I just hate everyone. „|„