Khail. 21. Finally a uni student!
Sometimes, all we really need is someone to talk to! And maybe a couple of laughs for good measure. Let's be friends, yeah?
I’ve always wanted to belong.
Pakainin kita ng aspalto e.
This Prolly isn’t the best night to start listening to my newly downloaded heartbreakingly depressing songs [Oh coincidence, you vapid cunt]. I can’t say that I didn’t see this coming. Because really, who am I even kidding? It’s not as if this was the first time it’s happened either. Still, it doesn’t make the ordeal any more enjoyable~ At least this time around, there were balls of steel and not just some random chicken out. This probably won’t help my general sense of well being, but there’s nothing anyone can do to help it.
Shit happens. For some reason there doesn’t seem to be a space too small, desolate, and fucking hopeless for people like me to crawl into. Now I shall bask in thoughts of tragic loneliness and horrible depression brought to me a few nights ago by my good friend Paolo.
This still won’t stop me from swooning. I like swooning. Because of you. Or I don’t know.
There’s this story arc where Anna, the lead character, has to fix the broken relationship of her former butler and the said woman’s husband. It turns out that even if Anna triggered the demise of their relationship, she wasn’t the root cause.
Gina was so caught up in her insecurities that she was so scared that her husband would leave her. Ultimately, those very insecurities pushed her husband to his breaking point.
When Gina had her second miscarriage, the man decides to leave her for good. This drives her insane as she pleads her spouse not to leave her. Tears kept falling, but the man was adamant about the relationship ending. And then he got to these lines:
When was the last time you smiled? An actual smile, because you’re happy. Not those fake ones we give each other all the time.
Maybe in our case, love just isn’t enough. Can’t we just use what is left of our love to let each other go?
By this point I was just
I am relieved, at the same time sad, that this actually happens to people. You know, it makes me feel better knowing that I wasn’t being a complete tit. Sometimes a perfectly happy relationship just ends because life works that way. You think love is enough, but it never is.